Personal Thoughts

There comes a point in everyone’s life that calls for a re-evaluation of sorts. For me, that seems to always happen the weekend I go to Hume Lake. I have been blessed to be able to be a camp counselor for the last 4 years to the same small group girls that came into my life as freshmen. These freshmen quickly grew up into young women who I genuinely enjoy spending time with.

This year I was fortunate enough to be able to surprise them and come back as their counselor for their senior year. There is just something incredible about watching 1,000+ high school students worship Jesus in a way that you never did when you were a high schooler. The sight of hands raised, the sounds of voices singing and the feeling of complete connection with God is something that will always be my favorite part about Hume.

Every year I go to camp with the hope and prayer that my girls will be challenged and convicted to re-evaluate their lives. Friendships, relationships, ambitions and priorities. Well, every year I come back just as much changed as they do. This year I went to Hume with a million things on my mind. Varying from my season of singleness all the way down to a few emails I forgot to send at work before I left. My head was clogged. The minute I arrived my heart and head cleared and I had a sense of peace in my heart that I had almost lost in the hustle and bustle of being an adult.

As if seeing my girls wasn’t amazing enough, God placed the most amazing co-counselor in my cabin. A girl I met when she herself was a high schooler and I was in my first year as a small group leader. I’ve always respected this girl and knew God was going to do amazing things in her life, I just never realized that she would be placed in my life so many years later and challenge me in a way I knew I needed.

We prayed together, cried together, sat together and witnessed to these girls together. I’m confident she was placed in my life for this reason and what a comfort it is knowing we have so many of the same fears, anxieties and worries. Truth be told, nothing is a coincidence and I know this was just another blessing from God in my life.

I can honestly say I came down that mountain (in blizzard like conditions), a completely changed person. While I still have the same fears, anxieties and worries, I am comforted knowing that no matter what God has a plan for them. The hard part about last weekend was the re-evaluation. The tough decision to no longer allow certain people in my life. The heartbreak of moving on from a situation I prayed relentlessly would be different. The fear of letting go and letting God. All things I still don’t know how to handle but am trusting God will make it easier in the coming weeks, months and year.

I wish I could fully describe what a gift it is to go to Hume Lake. It is the closest I feel I have come to Heaven on Earth. While I’m sad that was more than likely my last year, I am so uplifted that Hume isn’t going anywhere. Thousands of kids every year will drive through those mountains, turn down that long driveway, pull up to the general store and make their way to the cabins that will change their lives. That gives me major hope for the next generation and the future of this world. If you have the opportunity to experience it or your child does, SEND THEM! It is the best decision you never knew you needed to make.

God bless,

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Why hello there… I’ve got some exciting news! The blog is back (with a twist)!

At the beginning of 2018 I had this strong feeling I needed to take a step back. This blog had become a chore and I never wanted it to feel that way. Partially because I had just made a major life change, moved almost 300 miles south of where I was living and no longer felt as passionate about fashion as I once did. My head and my heart were in two completely different places and it was time to focus on me for a bit.

After months of doing just that (and encouragement from everyone, basically), I am thrilled to say Graceful Glamour Girl is back. However, what once was strictly a fashion blog, now has become a lifestyle focused blog. Why, you ask? Well because I bought a house and now I only buy home decor items. Haha!

To catch you up, I bought a house over the summer and have been renovating it piece by piece. After working in Real Estate for years the process of buying a house didn’t scare me at all. It was probably one of the easiest transactions I have ever witnessed to be honest. But then the real challenge came, decorating and renovating. I’m happy to say that my house is now in a place where I love sharing it with everyone and that includes you! I can’t wait to share with you all the details of the last year—trips that I took, decorating tips, DIY struggles, and all the chaos in between.

So here’s to 2019, where my house continues to become a home, my heart continues to live for others and my faith keeps me grounded in hope for the future.

Thanks for following along and Happy New Year!

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I’ve been dreading this post. I will be honest, I have been avoiding writing it for months. It’s probably one of the few things I didn’t think would ever come to an end, but I’ve decided it is time. It is time for Graceful Glamour Girl to say goodbye… for now.

Truthfully I didn’t see this coming, but then again, have I seen any part of the last year coming? Not. At. All. The last time I wrote a post on here was rough. (You can read it here). My head and heart were in a completely different place. There was so much pain that needed healing and so much frustration that I needed to share. Not to help myself, okay maybe a little, but mainly to help others so they wouldn’t make the same mistake I did. My entire life I have had one goal, to help others. While some of that may look a little different than how others would have done it, I really, truthfully only wanted to help others. Well, that goal still continues but from a new perspective. A new perspective that includes the desire to live a more quiet life.

This new perspective has allowed me to take a step back and see with my eyes wide open. While fashion will always have a special place in my heart, the time devoted to this blog could be spent better elsewhere. Am I going to give away all my clothes and live in yoga pants? No. No more than I already do that is. But I really just am in a different place than I used to be.

When my mom and I started this blog, I was living at home, working full time and going to school full time. Our weekends were spent with a camera in tow and 5 outfits at a time that I’d change into in the backseat of my truck. I would spend hours editing photos and picking out outfits for my next shoot. It was exhausting but rewarding so I always made the time, and bless my moms heart, so did she.

We treated this like another job and I’m confident that her devotion to it as much as mine was why it was so successful. But recently I realized what is truly important and for me, that was finding what true contentment felt like. I can happily say, I finally found it. Was it in a husband? Nope. (I mean I hope that’s in the cards at some point in the future, but that’s another story) Was it in one of the most photographed places ever (Napa)? Nope. It was in a town south of where I grew up that I really had never spent any time in. Well unless you count In N Out to eat a few times.

Never in a million years would I have ever dreamed I would be sitting here in this apartment, in this city, writing this blog. But hey, they say tell God your plans so He can laugh, and after last year He probably laughed so hard His side hurt. I even find myself sitting in peace and quiet and just laughing because on what planet should the last 5 months have gone the way that they have?

I am blessed.

Blessed because even when I make huge mistakes, God still knows my heart. Even when I try to take control and own a situation, He knows I will fail and catches me anyway. Even when I feel like I’m trying to do things the right way, He reminds me, there is a better way, His way. I am humbled by the incredible amount of things He has protected my heart from and am learning more and more each day to rely on Him.

While I’m personally sad that this is the end of the road for the blog, for now, I’m more sad to lose that connection with all of you reading this. I’ve met some truly incredible people because of this blog. I’ve got to travel to NYC, work with brands like Miss Me and Durango, and have met so many inspiring women along the way. To everyone who has read this blog and followed it through all these years, I’m humbled by that, truly. You have no idea how much it has meant to me to be able to interact with you all and share my life.

While the blog will be gone, my Instagram will still be alive. It’s on private mode, because lets be real, one stalker was enough to make that happen. However, I will gladly still talk to you all on there and respond to any comments or questions. I’m not sure when I’ll actually take this blog down, but the time is coming soon. I just couldn’t do it without letting you all know how grateful and humbled I am.

So for the last time, thank you all for your prayers, well wishes and virtual hugs.

Have a great evening and God bless!

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