I’ve been dreading this post. I will be honest, I have been avoiding writing it for months. It’s probably one of the few things I didn’t think would ever come to an end, but I’ve decided it is time. It is time for Graceful Glamour Girl to say goodbye… for now.
Truthfully I didn’t see this coming, but then again, have I seen any part of the last year coming? Not. At. All. The last time I wrote a post on here was rough. (You can read it here). My head and heart were in a completely different place. There was so much pain that needed healing and so much frustration that I needed to share. Not to help myself, okay maybe a little, but mainly to help others so they wouldn’t make the same mistake I did. My entire life I have had one goal, to help others. While some of that may look a little different than how others would have done it, I really, truthfully only wanted to help others. Well, that goal still continues but from a new perspective. A new perspective that includes the desire to live a more quiet life.
This new perspective has allowed me to take a step back and see with my eyes wide open. While fashion will always have a special place in my heart, the time devoted to this blog could be spent better elsewhere. Am I going to give away all my clothes and live in yoga pants? No. No more than I already do that is. But I really just am in a different place than I used to be.
When my mom and I started this blog, I was living at home, working full time and going to school full time. Our weekends were spent with a camera in tow and 5 outfits at a time that I’d change into in the backseat of my truck. I would spend hours editing photos and picking out outfits for my next shoot. It was exhausting but rewarding so I always made the time, and bless my moms heart, so did she.
We treated this like another job and I’m confident that her devotion to it as much as mine was why it was so successful. But recently I realized what is truly important and for me, that was finding what true contentment felt like. I can happily say, I finally found it. Was it in a husband? Nope. (I mean I hope that’s in the cards at some point in the future, but that’s another story) Was it in one of the most photographed places ever (Napa)? Nope. It was in a town south of where I grew up that I really had never spent any time in. Well unless you count In N Out to eat a few times.
Never in a million years would I have ever dreamed I would be sitting here in this apartment, in this city, writing this blog. But hey, they say tell God your plans so He can laugh, and after last year He probably laughed so hard His side hurt. I even find myself sitting in peace and quiet and just laughing because on what planet should the last 5 months have gone the way that they have?
I am blessed.
Blessed because even when I make huge mistakes, God still knows my heart. Even when I try to take control and own a situation, He knows I will fail and catches me anyway. Even when I feel like I’m trying to do things the right way, He reminds me, there is a better way, His way. I am humbled by the incredible amount of things He has protected my heart from and am learning more and more each day to rely on Him.
While I’m personally sad that this is the end of the road for the blog, for now, I’m more sad to lose that connection with all of you reading this. I’ve met some truly incredible people because of this blog. I’ve got to travel to NYC, work with brands like Miss Me and Durango, and have met so many inspiring women along the way. To everyone who has read this blog and followed it through all these years, I’m humbled by that, truly. You have no idea how much it has meant to me to be able to interact with you all and share my life.
While the blog will be gone, my Instagram will still be alive. It’s on private mode, because lets be real, one stalker was enough to make that happen. However, I will gladly still talk to you all on there and respond to any comments or questions. I’m not sure when I’ll actually take this blog down, but the time is coming soon. I just couldn’t do it without letting you all know how grateful and humbled I am.
So for the last time, thank you all for your prayers, well wishes and virtual hugs.
Have a great evening and God bless!